october twenty

Being away from your family is always difficult. Making the decision to move away for good and not know when I will see them again was the hardest thing I have ever done.  I think that the transition has been so bearable for me because I moved far away for college. There were months and months that I didn't see my family.  And here I have Bez. 

However, over time, that feeling of lonliness creeps in. I miss them and I know that they miss me.  I miss that feeling of familiar and that feeling of safety. I miss knowing that with them nothing can ever be that terribly wrong.  With Bez out of town for a really long time, I was feeling extra lonely and bored. The only thing that was getting me through was knowing that this period of aloneness was going to be broken up by a visit from Dad and Jessica. 

I can't say that over the weekend they were here that we did many things that were excitement worthy but just having them around made a world of difference. 

I picked them up from the airport Friday after work. By request, we headed straight to The Cheesecake Factory (no surprise). We had to do some waiting so I made sure to show them the extremely cool One Direction Build-a-Bear I want for Christmas.  We sat down to a very late dinner and for the first time ever we didn't eat our dessert at the restaurant- or even that night when we got home.  We spent the evening watching our favorite show (Criminal Minds). Going to sleep that night, it was lovely knowing that the people I love the most were within earshot.  It was calming and for the first time in all the time that I have lived in Dallas, I slept through the night without waking up and I didn't have that strange feeling I can't explain when I woke up.

Saturday we had a minor roadblock when we took my car to the dealership.  It was a hectic experience I don't want to relive but out of that experience it made me realize how loving and patient my father has become.  I had a meltdown in the car and he told me "It will all work it.  It's all going to be okay.  I am so proud of you." Those words live at the top of the list of greatest things you want to hear in your life.

We went to the FC Dallas game.  It was our first MLS game that we can all clearly remember.  We think we went to a DC United game once but no one is really sure.  The stadium is sunken into the ground and was something I had never quite seen before. They were playing the Seattle Sounders which Clint Dempsey plays for. Jessica and I were hoping for an epic goal by him but that didn't happen.  However, we did see someone celebrate their scoring achievement by taking their shirt off.

After the game, we were all extremely excited because we were going to the State Fair of Texas. It was an experience.  If you know me well, you know I am not a fan of crowds or traffic.  This was not the place for me.  We FINALLY made it to the fair and inside the gate after a very long time sitting in traffic and waiting for our tickets.  We didn't play any games or do anything spectacular. We were there for the experience. We were there to see the fair and Big Tex and eat a corn dog.  We accomplished all of these things and got the hell out of that madhouse.

I'm not even sure what we did on Sunday. I think we sat around and watched football.  It really doesn't matter. I loved having them here. I loved having a time where it was just the three of us. I missed mom incredibly but there is something special about spending time with just dad.